Clumsy
Performed by: Karla Anderson
Songwriter: Karla Anderson
© Betty Black Music 2026

These ghosts wear muddy boots
Leave muddy footprints on my floor
And peer through all the peepholes
Of all my chain-locked doors
Now and then, one creeps in
And crawls under my skin
His muddy boots inside my brain
Leaving footprints once again

And I've got clumsy lips
The kind that sink ships
And such a clumsy heart
Falling too hard, falling apart
I’m falling apart
My clumsy heart

These ghosts live rent free
Residing here with me
But can't be bothered to pick up a mop
Make me clean or make it stop
These ghosts are funny things
With their muddy boots and all their stomping
They're pulling all my strings
With all the chaos that they bring

And I've got clumsy lips
The kind that sink ships
And such a clumsy heart
Falling too hard, falling apart
I’m falling apart
My clumsy heart

It's the ones under my skin
Keeping me in this tailspin
I take another one on the chin
With a rueful grin

Cause I've got clumsy lips
The kind that sink ships
And such a clumsy heart
Falling too hard, falling apart
I’m falling apart
My clumsy heart
I’m falling apart
My clumsy heart
I’m falling apart
My clumsy heart

Uninvited
Performed by: Karla Anderson 
Songwriter: Karla Anderson
© Betty Black Music 2026

Love showed up uninvited
Forced its way in
And invaded my space 
With all those thoughts I decided
Should stay buried within
The kindness of a friendly face

Our connection
Was a redirection
Of a love you once had and love you lost
But I know my place
To fill the empty space
And to remind you of the cost

You said “I love being inside of you”
But who were you talking to
Who were you talking to
I know it wasn’t me
When I felt your love
Who were you thinking of
Who were you thinking of
Cause I know it wasn’t me

Love showed up uninvited

And when love just feels like shame
A humiliating game
Only meant to punish a few
Please don’t punish me too

You said “I love being inside of you”
But who were you talking to
Who were you talking to
Cause I know it wasn’t me
And when I felt your love
Who were you thinking of 
Who were you dreaming of
Cause I know it wasn’t me
It was never me, it will never be me
I know it wasn’t me

Love showed up uninvited

Summer Came 
Performed by: Karla Anderson 
Songwriter: Karla Anderson
© Betty Black Music 2025

Summer came
And so did you with the desert heat
A dormant flame
You lit again
Inside of me

Summer came
And so did I like the desert heat
I arched my back
And the earth collapsed
All around me

Summer came
With those thoughts again like a freight train
That hit so hard
With no regard
For the pain

Please understand
If I take matters into my own hands
To avoid another crisis
Yes
I guess
It might be best
If I’m left
To my own devices

Summer came
And so did I like the desert heat
That dormant flame
Lit up again
Inside of me

Summer came
Another summer came
Summer came
Another summer came

Tattooed 
Performed by: Karla Anderson 
Songwriter: Karla Anderson
© Betty Black Music 2024

Stranded in the desert on a dark dusty road
Somewhere between anger and empathy
I left my heart alone with my brain
And thumbed a ride towards ecstasy       

But you dropped me at the corner 
Of lonely and despair
And now I’m living there 

I jumped in when I should have ran
Love ended before it began
And you left your mark
Tattooed on my heart        

Now I’ve made my home here, it’s cozy and warm
The dogs all keep me good company
But I’m still living with falling too hard
It’s left me with these scars on my knees          

Where you kicked me out of the car 
At the corner of lonely and despair
It’s been years and I’m still living there  

I jumped in when I should have ran
Love ended before it began
And you left your mark
Tattooed on my heart    

Someday I’ll travel back to that dark dusty road
Somewhere between anger and empathy
I’ll have a little chat with my heart and my brain
About making some new memories      

I’ll put a “for sale” sign 
At the corner of lonely and despair
And I’ll move far away from there  

I jumped in when I should have ran
Love ended before it began
And you left your mark
Tattooed on my heart

In the End
Performed by: Karla Anderson
Songwriter: Karla Anderson
© Betty Black Music 2024

I scroll past the hate and other displays
Maybe it's too late, I've been down for days
There's madness on TV and shit on the radio
But none of that's up to me so just let it go

It's not cool to be kind, it’s lame to care
So how can I find a love I can share
I may not be where I wanted to be
Maybe I'll get there eventually

And I don't know how this will end
Feels so hopeless, so alone
But maybe today I can find a friend
I know change starts at home

It's okay to worry, it’s okay to feel
We all have our story and still need to heal
Sometimes I spiral, my thoughts in a cyclone
Like a meme gone viral, takes on a life of its own

When those thoughts come I try to push them away
I don't know why I hurt me that way
I may not be where I wanted to be
But maybe I'll get there eventually

And I don't know how this will end
When it feels so hopeless and so alone
But maybe today I can find a friend
I know change starts at home

And I don't know how this will end
But I know I'm not alone
Maybe today I can be a friend
I know change starts at home

Maybe it'll all be okay in the end
I know I'm not alone
Cause I won't regret love in the end
I know change starts at home

Walk Away 
Performed by: Karla Anderson 
Songwriter: Karla Anderson
© Betty Black Music 2023

It was a year ago today
I should’ve walked away
But here I am today

And all of these thoughts like fools rush in
As I sit here alone with my headphones in
Your voice in my ear
With every word I hear
It’s all so clear
So I listen

It was a year ago today
I didn’t walk away
Here I am today

There’s comfort in indifference and peace of mind
But thoughts like these are the killing kind
And even though
I wanna go
I know
I still wanna try

It was a year ago today
It’s time to walk away
From a game I don't wanna play

All these self-fulfilling prophecies may be my condition
But you read my mind without my permission
Yeah you read my mind
You read my mind
You read my mind
Without my permission

It was a year ago today
Now it’s time to walk away
When there’s nothing left to say
It’s time to walk away

Push
Performed by: Karla Anderson
Songwriter: Karla Anderson
© Betty Black Music 2023 

You pull me in
You pull me close 
You kiss my lips 
You pull my heart
Pull at my mind 
With vice-like grips  

And you know it
And you pull 
Then you push
I’m your fool 

My love is unconditional 
But your push is harder than your pull 
You pull me in 
Just to push me away again 

Your pull has power over me
Like the moon over the tide 
And I could drown 
Cause when you pull me close
I feel like I’m falling for you 
But I’m just falling down 

And you know it
And you pull 
Then you push
I’m your fool

My love is unconditional 
But your push is harder than your pull 
You pull me in 
Just to push me away again 

Cause when you pull me close
I feel like I’m falling for you 
But I’m just falling down 

And you know it
And you pull 
Then you push 
I’m your fool 

My love is unconditional 
But your push is harder than your pull 
You pulled me in 
Just to push me away again

Destroy Me  
Performed by: Karla Anderson  
Songwriter: Karla Anderson  
© Betty Black Music 2022  

I desire the things which will destroy me  
In the end  
And all of those things 
Just annoy me  
So I pretend  
Not to care  
I swear  
I don’t  
Cause it won’t  
Matter anyway  

I’m scared to ask for that which will destroy me  
So I intend  
To play it safe
Hoping it won’t destroy me  
In the end  
I just pray  
And never say  
Forever  
Cause it’ll never  
Matter anyway  

If I desire your touch please don’t destroy me  
In the end  
I won’t ask you for much
Please enjoy me  
Please be my friend  
If I plea  
Could we agree  
But you couldn’t  
And it wouldn’t  
Have mattered anyway  

But will I find myself standing here once again
Gazing at your face
And will I find myself standing here once again
Gazing at your face
Will I find myself standing here once again  
Gazing at the face
Which will destroy me  
In the end  

I desire the things which will destroy me  
In the end

A Beautiful Contradiction   
Performed by: Karla Anderson   
Songwriter: Karla Anderson   
© Betty Black Music 2022   

You ever feel so stupid you feel sick   
Wondering if it was all a game or some cruel trick   
It’s a sucker punch straight to the gut   
It snuck right up on me and kicked my butt   

See I’ve got this forsaken heart   
I’m a lost wandering soul   
I don’t always play it smart   
Lord knows it’s taken its toll   

So how was that supposed to go   
Getting me to trust you that way   
You pulled me in too close   
Then you pushed me away   

So why get tangled up with me   
If we’re unhappily happy on our own   
And if misery loves company   
Oh God I should have known   

You ever feel so stupid you feel sick   
Wondering if it was all a game or some cruel trick   
It’s a sucker punch straight to the gut   
It snuck right up on me and kicked my butt   

If everything I ever wanted   
Is everything I cannot have   
Then oh what a beautiful contradiction you are 
If everything I manifested
Was meant to slip right through my hands
Then oh what a beautiful contradiction you are
Oh what a beautiful contradiction you are 
Oh what a beautiful contradiction you are
Oh what a beautiful contradiction you are  

You ever feel so stupid you feel sick   
You ever feel so stupid you feel sick   
You ever feel so stupid you feel sick   
You ever feel so stupid you feel sick